Piercings & Tattoos

Okay, this is really creepy.. at least to me.
so just a few minutes ago, i was having one of my "gonna go crazy" moments
every single time i have a huge surge of emotion.. like.. pain?hurt?
i always tend to go crazy and do something crazy.. on impulse ~.~
so my tongue piercing was one.. my navel was another..
my blonde hair too -_____- and lets not mention the number of piercings i had on my ear

whenever.... hmmm... i have one of these "episodes"
thats when i really, REALLY, CAN. NOT. stay at home !!!
because i'll seriously go crazy i might just commit suicide

okay, i shall take that back because i value my life a lot actually hahaha

anyway! So i had this desperate urge to get out of my house
and suddenly the idea of getting another piercing seemed so appealing to me
like, i've always wanted a nape piercing.
i wouldnt mind one on the collar bone.
and my tongue piercing migrated so i've always been DYING to get it repierced or removed or replace it with venom or whatever.
so i went to google about the various piercings, the healing process, duration and all
to see which one i wanna get it done first..

and thats when i stumble upon this page.
http://www.letusreason.org/current91.htm
okay, many do not know this, but i've always been a faithful follower of Christ
despite how i look and how i behave.. despite me not going to church for almost 2 years.
like i left the church not because i lose faith in Christ... it's because of some internal conflicts which, obviously, is not the main topic of this blog post right now. ANYWAY,

that article... omg.... idk! i felt as if i just received two fking tight slaps across my face
and now, i'm feeling ridiculously guilty and i have this strong urge to remove all my piercings-_-
okay i know i sound ridiculous, but... REALLY !!!!

i remembered how my teacher in church used to tell me that God will always speak to you...
not in the literal form, maybe through people around you, through things that happaned around you to teach you and to guide you.
and i really don't know why,
i had this really strong and firm certainty that God is trying to tell me: NO! Dont do it!

and you know how they always claimed that your body is a temple and the holy spirit reside in you
somehow, today marks the day i truly believe.. incredibly, in my heart.
i mean it's not something new to me, i've always known and heard about this, but i've never truly "accepted" it in a sense ..... believe it so strongly ...... in my belly  !!
[ LOL i know it sounded weird but my belly's the part where i felt it so strongly.. maybe im just hungry :B ]

okay im rambling again i guess most people will find this blog post meaningless and stupid ~.~

times like this.. i kinda miss church
but.. seriously..